I’m finally home, and New York still feels like a dream to me. Everything there doesn’t feel real, yet so attainable – the way the city never sleeps, the way people never stop moving, and the way it is impossible to see everything there is to see in a lifetime. The Metropolitan Museum of Art was sensory overload. The Empire State Building blew my mind. Being with Amy again is always a milestone of how much we have grown and changed over the years. It’s always a reminder of how the best friendships grow as we do; of how intimacy and control cannot go hand-in-hand and how you cannot love people for their certainty alone.
Two days of rest, then go-time again.
I came to New York, because I heard it was the city where dreams come true. I did not expect to grapple with transitioning friends and cry on dirty street corners. But the thing about hearts is that they always change, and they grow warm or cold depending on the season they are in. I used to hate malleable hearts and fickle minds, but there is hope and light in all of this, because there is a God who pursues us harder than people and demons do.
ICE CREAM: Big Gay Ice Cream
COFFEE: Perk Kafe
LEATHER SHOP: Will Leather Goods
“New York is the place where you can find everything that you didn’t realize you needed.”
The city is jam-packed top to bottom with anything you could ever imagine – all things good, all things ridiculous, all thing avant garde.
Walking down the streets of Manhatten full of beautiful clothes and beautiful people makes me dream about opportunity and the things to come, but also easily makes me feel insufficient. A place like this is overwhelming and full of light, but can work your heart in ways that shouldn’t be worked if you don’t pay attention to it. I wonder how many people feel insignificant here.
The other night, Brian took me to a show in a room shaped that felt like a shipping crate (small space, huge talent). And even though the band only made $3, I promise you that what they did that night was significant.
KOREAN FOOD: Pocha 32 (They serve watermelon soju in a huge watermelon halves.)
VEGETARIAN JUICE BAR/CAFE: Butcher’s Daugther
COFFEE SHOP: Kaffe 1668 (Make sure you pet the sheep.)
CONSIGNMENT STORE: Buffalo Exchange
NOODLES: Momofuku Noodle Bar